Two nights ago i was driving back on my own from a party…i didn’t want to get home so late so i decided to push the pedals harder…and i noticed two things about myself.
The first being that when i’m alone in my car lots of thouhts flood my head.
Secondly I’m soo influenced by the music I’m listening to at the time yeah…it can either ginger or dull you.
Those are the basic two things i noticed…i normally go 60-80km/hr but it was night and the roads were free…i’d blame adrenaline rush rather than suicidal thoughts (didn’t have them oh) on why i decided to go faster.
At 100km/hr things were moving fast and i had control over my car somewhat…at 150km/hr i wound my windows down to let the rush of wind disorganize my car (all the while listening to loud music)…i clocked 200 and from there it felt like i was just floating…i wound back up and there was this serenity (apart from the dull hum of the engine).
At that speed anything could have and probably would’ve gotten me killed yeah, but i just kept going…like i wanted to stop but that was only mental, my body was basking in the thrill of it all.
When i slowed down to a more reasonable speed (so i wouldn’t miss the turn to my house0 i had this understanding-human life is really hopeless against stuff like death man…if i had crashed…well you should all try it sometime :)